I remembered it all too well.
I revisited the places that we used to go.
And buried our memories.
And bidding them a sweet farewell.
And let go of everything.
But I guess everything backfired.
It did not work.
The past has an automatic replay button.
It will keep on playing on repeat..
Only until with His permission, it will stop.
Ive learnt so much this year. Yeap.
Ive learnt how to stay calm amidst the 'storm' , how to be patient sincerely, how to just let go of things, who to trust, how to forgive and let go, where my heart truly lies & never lose hope.
"All of life is an act of letting go but what hurts the most is not taking a moment to say goodbye. "
" Above all... it is important not to lose hope."
"It's important in life to conclude things properly. Only then can you let go. Otherwise you are left with words you should have said but never did, and your heart is heavy with remorse."
"Santosh Patel: You think tiger is your friend, he is an animal, not a playmate.
Pi Patel: Animals have souls... I have seen it in their eyes."
Mum & Dad, both of you are the number one for me.
Yes, no one can ever take your place.
"i was a foolish little child
crazy things i used to do
and all the pain i put you through"
"My mom raised me to be a righteous woman so
that I deserve a righteous man she never raised me to be a toy in any
boy’s hand, but she raised me to complete the Deen of a pious man.
Also, I am not an easy girl who would be impressed with sweet love
words, but I am a proud Muslimah who is just like a pearl in its shell
no one can touch it but a brave man who would value it and cherish its
beauty..."
http://www.yasminmogahed.com/
I personally think that Yasmin Mogahed is an inspiring writer.
Whenever Im feeling down, demotivated and losing myself, her website is the first thing that came into mind.
Here are some passages which I excrepted from her web:
"When I cry or lose or bruise, so long as I am still alive, nothing is ultimate. So long as there is still a tomorrow, a next moment, there is hope, there is change, there is redemption. What is lost, is not lost forever."
"Allah gives us gifts, but then we come to love them as we should only love Him. We take those gifts and inject them into our hearts, until they take over. Soon we cannot live without them. Every waking moment is spent in contemplation of them, in submission and worship to them. The mind and the heart that was created by Allah, for Allah, becomes the property of someone or something else. And then the fear comes. The fear of loss begins to cripple us. The gift—that should have remained in our hands—takes over our heart, so the fear of losing it consumes us. Soon, what was once a gift becomes a weapon of torture and a prison of our own making. How can we be freed of this? At times, in His infinite mercy, Allah frees us…by taking it away."
"And so sometimes, the ‘something better’ is the greatest gift: nearnesss to Him. "
"So to the question, ‘once something is lost, does it return?’ the answer is yes. It returns. Sometimes here, sometime there, sometimes in a different, better form. But the greatest gift lies beneath the taking and the returning. Allah tells us: “Say, ‘In the bounty of Allah and in His mercy – in that let them rejoice; it is better than what they hoard.’” (Quran, 10:58)"
"The path of expectations and the ‘falling in love with love’ is a painful one, but it can bring its own lessons. Lessons about the nature of love, this world, people, and one’s own heart, can pave this often painful path. Most of all, this path can bring its own lessons about the Creator of love."
"This means you will love what He loves and not love what He does not love. And when you do love, you will give to the creation—not for what you can get in return from them. You will love and you will give, but you will be sufficed from Him. And the one who is sufficed by God, is the richest and most generous of all lovers. Your love will be by Him, for Him, and because of Him. That is the liberation of the self from servitude to any created thing. And that is freedom. That is happiness. That is love."
"Once you begin to see everything beautiful as only a reflection of God’s beauty, you will learn to love in the right way: for His sake. Everything and everyone you love with be for, through and because of Him. The foundation of such love is God. So what you hold onto will no longer be just an unstable feeling, a fleeting emotion. And what you chase will no longer be just a temporary high. What you hold, what you chase, what you love, will be God: the *only* thing stable and constant. Thereafter, everything else will be through Him. Everything you give or take or love or don’t love, will be by Him. Not by your nafs. It will be for Him. Not for your nafs."
Well hello there.
It has beeen a while..
I really miss blogging & thats why Im back!
I am currently enjoying my newfound freedom, and this freedom will be the longest! 9 months baby 9 months!
just had my last A level exam today. it went well, alhamdulillah.
tbh, this year had been...rough.
yes. There has been alot of things that happen, that I thought I myself couldnt handle.
It all started in October 13, 2011, and ended in August 12, 2012.
Ive always wondered why. Why do we end so soon.
And your reasons are totally invalid.
Ive always wondered how you manage to change your mind so quickly and forget everything.
and Ive always wondered if everything you said was true.
What would you do if the one that you cared, trust, respect, turn their back against you, and left you.
Just like that.
'Dont knock on my door, if you are planning to leave anyway'
you've asked for my forgiveness, but does it really matter now?
Dont get me wrong, I forgive, but I couldnt forget.
And after everything that you've done, I couldnt see u the same way as before.
But I must admit, there are times that I somehow ended up missing you.
put myself into your shoes, maybe you'll understand.
and yes,
