What is Beauty?

Assalamualaikum Silent reader(s) ;-)

“Beauty. Some people don’t even recognise beauty

when it’s right in front of them. 

They can walk through a sunset

or a brilliant forest of orange trees, and not even notice.

Other people see beauty and do appreciate it. 

They will stop and take it in. 

They may even feel overwhelmed by it. But it ends there. 

That person is like the one who appreciates art,
but never inquires about the artist.

The artwork itself was intended to communicate a message from the artist;
but if the art lover loses himself in the painting
- but never sees the message, that artwork hasn’t fulfilled its true purpose.

The purpose of the glorious sun,
 first fallen snow,
crescent moons
and breathtaking oceans
 is not to decorate this lonely planet.
The purpose is far deeper than that.”

—	Yasmin Mogahed (Reclaim your heart)

Guard Your Heart.

“Don’t think for a moment that your heart is ‘strong’. 
The heart is a vulnerable fool. 
It turns more easily than you turn your head. 
That’s why its called ‘qalb’ (that which turns). 
Protect it with layer upon layer of guards. 
And the only guard is the *consistent* remembrance of God. "
- Yasmin Mogahed


“I like people and I like them to like me, 
but I wear my heart where God put it, on the inside."
- F. Scott Firzgerald

Assalamualaikum Silent reader(s) ;-)

“Time for solitude. God, I ask you to remake my heart. 
Fill it with what You love.
 Remove from it what You don’t. 
And mend what I’ve broken.”

Aamiin Ya Rabb

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' Wear your heart on your sleeve '

In a good view, it represents that your honest 
and willing to open your heart to that person. 
But its also a bad thing,
because you can easily have your heart broken
and be hurt emotionally.

I am someone who wears my heart inside, 
I am not saying that I am not honest to people,
but I think it is best to keep most of the things inside,
and ask for God to remake your heart :)

Some might say that I am weak, a coward, for not
standing up for myself, for not saying things that people
deserve to hear from me, but no, I don't see myself as one.
I play things wisely, and I think it is wise to play mute 
once in a while ;)

Once people know the condition of your heart,
you are in deeeeeeep trouble bro/sis. 
Why? They might use it against you.

Metaphorically speaking, our heart is like a glass;
transparent & easily broken. 
This means that by wearing your heart on your sleeve
ain't a great idea my friend.

In order to 'upgrade' our heart, fill it with the remembrance of God,
because by the remembrance of God is when our heart functions best ;)
For instance, you come across someone you have issues with from the past, 
 at first the only thing that you'll feel is hatred. But by remembering God,
your heart wouldn't feel anything other than.........goodness :)

One Life, One Chance

Sometimes, we see the way out but wander further 
and  despite ourselves; the fear, the anger, 
or the sadness preventing us from returning. 
Sometimes, we prefer to be lost and wandering;
sometimes, it’s easier. 
Sometimes we find our own way out,
but regardless always, we are found.
- A Place Called Here - Cecelia Ahern

Assalamualaikum Silent reader(s) ;-)

Remember when I confidently told you guys that I'll be having an Interview session
aka MMI ( Multiple Mini Interview) this June... to my surprise it was actually EARLY.
Last Thursday, I received a phone call from someone in the uni regarding on the
MMI........ and told me that it will be held on the 29th of April! 
So yeah... I had my MMI on Monday... Honestly, I didn't do much research,
cus I myself don't even know what to research....

Overall, I find the MMI enjoyable and fun. BUT there are some stations where
I couldn't answer properly........ and I feel so down because of that!
At one of the stations, this interviewer questioned me about something that I clearly
have no idea what the answers are! She even asked me how many clinics are there
available in Brunei..... and I said I don't know.. And since then, her facial expression
changed from looking bored to looking unsatisfied and annoyed.

Maybe it was partly my fault, for not doing intense research...... but some of the interviewers
were playing hard on us, and I don't find it fair! Especially bcus they are local. I find foreign interviewers/
lecturers ( I assume all of the interviewers are lecturers. should be! ) more friendly compared to....
local ones.  [okay maybe I was being over dramatic... Im freaking out :/ ]

All I can do left is pray pray pray and wish for the best. I really hope most of the people who
went to the MMI ( everyone if possible) including myself will pass the interview!!
Insha Allah!

Behind every girl's favourite song, is an untold story.

i spend a lot of time

searching for affection

in shallow spaces

i gave people bits of me

they didn't deserve

and i let myself be hurt,

because i thought

that's what i deserved

but once i let go

of trying to shove puzzle pieces

in places that did not fit,

once i let go of all the hate

i secretly had stored in the 

gashes that decorate my heart

i met you

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“Most love stories are about people who fall in love with each other.
But what about the rest of us? 
What about our stories, those of us who fall in love alone? 
We are the victims of the one sided affair. 
We are the cursed of the loved ones. 
We are the unloved ones, the walking wounded. 
The handicapped without the advantage of a great parking space! 
Yes, you are looking at one such individual"
- Kat Winslet, The Holiday

Assalamualaikum Silent reader(s) ;-)

Never despair whenever this kind of 'tragedy' (exaggeration I know) befalls you.
You are not alone. 

I sometimes wonder, whenever Im alone, I think of these kind of things yknow, 
and sometimes when I see my friends who already have their own significant other, 
at one moment I feel so.... left out.
( I hope I didn't sound too pathetic :P )
On second thought, I don't think I am ready to be involved with feelings again atm!
Ive learnt my lesson and I prefer to play a slow game.. and let things fall slowly, hehe.
The most important thing to me right now is....... my studies. And I don't want to be
distracted. For now. At least. 

Anyways.. whenever something like this happens, set in your mind that God made us in pairs
and it is only a matter of time, we will meet our own half! Insha Allah. ;-)

As the great Yasmin Mogahed said:
“Some feel lonely because they haven’t found that perfect
‘companion’ yet. Sometimes Allah sends everyone else away so you can find that only in Him.”
and she also said:
“If you want the love of the people, stop running after it. The more you chase it, the more it escapes you.
Love doesn’t come from the people. It comes from God.”

In conclusion, make Him your top priority, and you will never be last ;-)
When the time comes, when our Imaan is already enough, 
the path that we've been on will cross with someone who has been written for us.
He is the best of all planners and His timing is never off.

One of my friends once said, "Save your precious heart to someone who deserves it!"
So guys, save your precious heart, keep it locked inside, learn not to get too attached 
to someone (even though it will be quite tough), only the person with the right 'key'
deserve it! ;-) 

'what comes easy wont last, what lasts wont come easy' 

p.s: Don't expect too much.... because expectations leads to disappointment.. 
My advise: Handle your feelings carefully ;-)