Tuesday, 26 February 2013

Grudge is bitter


All that has ever offended me, I forgive.
Whatever has made me bitter, resentful, unhappy, I forgive.
Within and without, I forgive.
I forgive everybody and everything that can possibly need forgiveness in my past, present, and future.
I forgive positively everyone.
I am free and they are free, too.
All things are cleared between us now and forever.
I forgive myself for any mistakes I may feel I have made, knowing now they were valuable lessons.
"
Daniel F. Cleary


Assalamualaikum Silent reader(s) ;-)

Hello there.
I have been thinking a lot lately. About things. Ie: why do bad things happen, why is it so inevitable, why we need to just accept things the way they are, why God wanted it to happen, why why why and why.

I am a believer, and I believe that God had planned everything all along. Easy thinking right?
And His plans are the best. But we need to do our part to. By praying and also work extra hard to get there. 

A lot of things came into my mind recently… like.. why don’t I just let go of everything, and
Move forward. Ofcourse, it is easier said than done. 

Alhamdulillah, with all my strength, I managed to do it. I never thought I could, and I am actually really scared if I couldn’t do so.

I have come to a conclusion that, no matter what, no matter how bad someone did to you,
And no matter how much it hurts, you need to stand up and forgive. Forgive with all your heart. Only then, you can make peace with the past, and a brighter future, Insha Allah, will come to you. My mom once told me that we shouldn’t be having bad terms with people, or else good things (rezeki) will not come to you easily. 

Forgetting something might be the hardest thing to do. Especially, if that something left a huge impact in your life. Maybe it is hard to live your life when you couldn't forget, but it is harder when you couldn't forgive. Sometimes, we need to accept that certain memories will have to remain in your heart forever, buried inside where it is out of our reach. Because the bittersweet memories made who we are now. Those flashbacks are inevitable. But yeah, we just have to deal with it right?

Holding grudges is bitter. And I am not that type of person that likes to hold one.
So..maybe this is God’s way of showing me that we weren’t meant to be. I guess?
I can say that I am now mentally healthy. Alhamdulillah. Hehe. Thanks to the holiday, good food, family and friends and lastly, the Almighty God.

My motto: forgive people, but never forget what they taught you, don't hold anything (grudges) against them, because they were once part of your life, and sooner or later something greater will come to you.
Ps: you were once, once, my best friend, someone that I usually come for advice. Whenever I have problems, you were there to tell me what is right to do.  You were there for me through thick and thin once. But all of these were when you were my best friend. Now, someone else took my place, and I couldn’t lie, it hurts at first, but then as time goes by, I have learnt to accept that some things aren’t meant to be. And we need to learn to let go. It is safe to say that I have now let you go. I am free, and so are you. I hope one day, when the time comes, I’ll find my own happiness. 

"God doesn't give you the people you want, he gives you the people you need. To help you, to hurt you, to leave you, to love you and to make you the person you were meant to be. "

Monday, 18 February 2013

What goes around, comes around like a Yo-yo.

If you were magic I'd buy a locket and make you my lucky charm,

I guess that this is silly because it's just a crush,

Now every time I see you, my body turns to mush,

I can't believe I'm acting this way I'm almost nineteen,

Oh well, too bad, I just don't care because I'm feeling you.



Assalamualaikum Silent reader(s) ;-)

Firstly, I'd like to apologise for not updating.
It has been a really busy week for me.
Ive been busy sorting out school stuffs,
Alhamdulillah Im done for now,
I just need to wait for my leaving cert,
and Im officially out from school, for good.

anyways, lately Ive been thinking alot,
about things. Overthinking about things
is not gooood, for my mind and health.
So Ive decided to cool down abit and
try to reach to a wise decision............
And my heart told me to change my course.
(my heart never lies)

And now here I am, changing my beloved
Microbiology to Environmental Science or Biotechnology.
tbh, I prefer Biotech more, cus the course 
contains the kind of Bio that I prefer to be learning.
Env Sci, on the other hand, is more to Ecology/Ecosystem,
and obviously Chemistry. (I love Chemistry too!)

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Went to sch on Saturday afternoon, 
and I saw someone from my past.
Didnt expect that person to be there.
Tbh, I don't really know what I felt when I saw you.
I guess I still have some..... feelings..
Hurt, annoyed, etc.
I really cannot wait for the day that when I look 
at you and feel absolutely nothing. Neutral.
I guess the day has not come yet. Be patient dearself.

But yea, Im confused myself,
how is it that I can actually have a crush on someone,
and still holding onto my past at the same time.
Is that even possible? lol :-p

All i could say is that love is complicated, mysterious,
unexpected, accidental and unplanned.

Saturday, 9 February 2013

An early birthday gift at 1451

Assalamualaikum Silent reader(s) ;-)

Today is the day! Results are officially out!
I received mine via SMS at 1451.
To be honest, I had mixed feelings when I was 
about to open it. I could feel everything,
the mini heart attack, excitement, anxious,
panic, uneasy. basically EVERYTHING.

And then when I opened it, Alhamdulillah!
I couldnt even believe what Im seeing!
It felt just like a dream. Yes!
And I was shaking. I srsly don't know what to say.
All I could think of was my parents, and also, God.
No matter what I say, I just couldnt thank Him enough,
and my parents too! For always praying for my success.

To be honest, I went through a really hard time during
the exam month. I, myself, at that time, don't even
know if I can cope with everything. Revising without
any distractions. 

Cus just a few months before that, I was heart-broken.
and still was, during the exam month.
I might not looked like I was, but deep inside, I was.
My head wasn't feeling ok.
My heart was....... shattered into pieces. 

But alhamdulillah! I finally got through!

Im actually very thankful to the person that broke me, 
cus you somehow made me stronger.
yes. thank you so much. :-D

'Semua yang terjadi ada hikmahnya'
this I agree! Even though Ive lost you, today Ive gained
something very valuable! For my future. Alhamdulillah..


AllahuAkbar. God is Great!
His plans, everything, are just simply.. amazing.

No matter what, Ive always remind myself not to be too
happy or too sad etc. Kerana bersederhana itu lebih baik.
We as humans should always remain humble and be grateful,no matter what.
Why? Kenapa?
Kerana hidup ini umpama roda. Kadangkala kita di bawah,
kadangkala kita di atas. 

Friday, 8 February 2013

To get to the finish line, you'll have to try lots of different paths.

You got a dream...You gotta protect it. 
People can't do somethin' themselves,
they wanna tell you you can't do it. 
If you want somethin,' go get it.

Assalamualaikum Silent reader(s) ;-)

It has been 10 days since the reg for the SMS O/A Level 
results, and our results are not released just yet......

Waiting can be frustrating sometimes, especially when
you've been waiting for a long time.......
I really hope our results are worth the wait.
Amiin.

Anyways, Ive been avoiding junk foods and chocolates 
for more than 2 weeks now! yeay me! 
and for drinks, Im only sticking to Water only, and Tea/Milo at times.
also, Ive finally started exercising again. and I feeeel great!
and not forgetting, 8 hours of beauty sleep!!! 
Ive made promise to myself to sleep before 10 pm. 
( if its football night, it is an exception. :-p )
At first it was kind of hard cus I got used to sleeping late,
but yeah after a while, I succeed!

I feel much much healthier now, compared to last year.
Alhamdulillah.

I really hope I could stick to this new healthy routine, for eternity~
oh yeah! 

Being Healthy=Positivity Increases + Smile = Happy me!