Eyes that couldn't shut (for a while) at the right time.

“When you love somebody that much, 
that hard, that long, you can never get away from them, 
no matter where you go. 
And that only comes once in a lifetime.” – Benjamin Mee
 
Assalamualaikum Silent reader(s) ;-) 

Tick tock tick tock, sem break will come to an end..
very soon. Uni re-opens this Monday.
If I had 1 wish, I'd wish for more holidays!
Although it sounds cliche', but it is so true.
I need more holidays :( I need my rest.

Frankly, I miss those high school days where you don't 
even care if you stayed up all night....... watching your fave
series. Those good old days. Damn it, why do I have to grow 
up so fast........ 

How ironic can I be when I'm actually feeling tired and sleepy,
but instead of going to bed, here I am blogging.
For me, blogging is therapeutic. Very therapeutic.
I blog whenever I've been through a rough day ( and when I have the time to blog).

Fyi, for my recent posts, they are dedicated to two different person.
Just lettin' you guys knowww haha.

Anyways, I decided to do a post tonight ( it is 11.58 pm atm) not because I had
a bad day, I just need to distract my mind from doing any Lobs (own notes) for tonight.
My brain is just too tired rn to even think about it.

Confession Part 2

1) One thing about me : I somehow prefer hanging out with boys rather than girls.
Idk why, maybe its because Im from a male-majority family &
 Im super close with my male cousins. ( there you go. male-majority family)
2) I procrastinate alot. Something that I would like to change. Procrastination is like my guilty pleasure. Uh-uh :-(
3) For some reasons, most of the songs in my iTunes playlist consist of deep-slo0ow songs.
4) I don't really know how to express my own feelings. -- There were times when I felt really sad, but I just couldn't let it all out because my tearducts were just so dry.
5) There were times that I kind of miss having a significant other. But hey don't get me wrong. I'm enjoying my boyf-free life atm! and Im lovin' it. :) -- This is the hardest part to admit huh. But yeah, this is the only thing that proves me as a human. And no, Im not interested on dating anyone atm. A girl like me is hard to handle. Seriously. So yeah, no to relationships atm. I guess I prefer the 'love after marriage' kind of thing.
6) I can't seem to control my anger nowadays. Maybe its because of the.............. nevermind. :-( Astaghfirullahalazim.
7) I read all sorts of motivational quotes everyday for self-motivation
8) There were times when I really asked myself, why did I sign up for this course. (correction : crazy, demanding course) -- Then again, after 7 weeks of getting to know it, it somehow convinced me to pursue my dreams further. Hopefully, in 6 years time. Aamiin :')
9) I kind of miss you. Yeah you. My old friend who just celebrated a one-year with the new friend.   Its great seeing you happy. 
10) My bedtime used to be at 10pm. Now...... its shifted to..... 12am. #MedicalStudents #gg

Confession Part 1

There's a point in life when you get tired of chasing everyone and trying to fix everything, but it's not giving up, it's realizing that you don't need certain people In your life, Sometimes you have to distance yourself from people that only call when they need something. Fair weather friends only want to come around when they need your sun to shine on their dark and gloomy days. In the end, you'll realize you only have a few true friends. But that's better than having many fake ones.  ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Heart said: Uh-uh Brain said: Told you so It is hard to not getting attached to someone who you talk to, almost everyday.  Even this cold heart of mine has it thaw days. As soon as you got attached, that person starts to..... 'leave'. Leave as in... stopped talking to you for... idk why Its not that you have some weird feelings for them.. Its just that, you got used to talking to them, and when you don't, something just don't feel right. And in the end you realised that maybe that particular person only talks to you bcus they were bored. In the end.. you too. Distancing yourself. Sometimes you have to distance yourself from all the folks that only calls when they need something.

When cows fly.

cuando las vacas vuelen
In Spanish, something that will never happen is often referred to as "cuando las vacas vuelen" .
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The probability of me and you crossing paths with each other is like cuando las vacas vuelen.
The moment when I saw you at the airport, I knew,
The surrounding, people that packed like sardines, somehow connotes our 'story',
Me and you, at the opposite sides, 
In order for us to get to either of our sides was by using force,
A force strong enough to overcome the crowded-ness,
Instead, we just stood still, well I did,
You might or might not realise I was there,
Eitherway, at that very moment, it made me realise that,
A story of Us would be impossible, or maybe at least at this time.

What bothers me the most is that, 
I kept on having dreams.

I've dreamt of you repeatedly,
And it bothers me,
And it made me questioned myself,
What is really in my heart?
Only The Owner of Hearts knows why.